Okay I haven't post like what I'm gonna post now for a really long time. But I'm gonna do it because something happened and it just struck me how easily we succumbed to peer pressure.

I just realised that a lot of the things we do, a lot of the people we hang out with, it's all the effect of what you think your peers would think of you if you did otherwise.

I have this friend who I haven't really kept in contact with for a long time and asked me out for some reason that can only be explained by the fact that she still treats me as a friend. Anyway, I turned her down because I really had something on. But then I knew I wasn't trying hard enough like I would if I'm a real friend.

That's because I never really treated her as a real friend.

Yes, shameful I know.

So I tried to think of reasons to justify my actions. Yes, I can't come up with a proper one. I could only suspect that she may not be as cool as those I would usually associate with and she may have a few not-so-endearing traits about her that irks me sometimes. But while I laughed about her "stupidity" behind her back with a few friends, she never really did anything mean to me before that I can recall. No heinous crime or betrayal, no reason absolutely for me to keep her at arms length.

And its strange that the cooler ones we hang out with, they can betray us or hurt us but we just forgive them easily but when those that have been nothing but nice to us, we turn away from them.

It's strange isn't it, us people?

Whoever said we deserve to go to heaven?