4 more days to the end of this torture...

anyway, was taking a breather from studying by reading Ethan's blog especially some of the old entries I had missed. Ok, who am I kidding. I actually came online to check some notes on BP and instead ended up surfing the net as usual. But anyway, the blog entries were very entertaining, hilarious. But it reminded me of something that's been pre-occupying my sub-conscious lately.

anger.

anyone who knows me for long should know that i have a temperament not to be trifled with. I would like to think that I'm converted now. But I do admit that I had a rather short temper and get impatient with crappy situations easily in the past. I do recall the time when my handphone rang in ms rajah class once and she confiscated it as a result. I got so pissed off with her for not returning the phone to me that I kicked the table to the ground before storming out of the class. Saying a word in my defense, I acted the way I did mainly because I knew she was trying to be difficult with me because she had been wanting a word with my parents for my deteriorating results but could not because my parents were not interested in meeting her. But still, upon reflection, I felt that I was rather "uncivilised" in the way I acted, not to mention total disrespect.

today I was out having lunch with Andrew at TM and as we were approaching the traffic light leading to the MRT station, we saw the crowd walking across the road even though the green man has stopped flashing a long time ago. Anyone familiar with the place should know this is a pretty usual sight. Anyway, the first car waiting behind the light started honking at them angrily and when the road finally cleared, the guy on the passenger side, this man probably in his forties, started flashing his hand up in a very uncouth manner as the car drove by.

first of all, I do agree that it is the pedestrains fault for crossing the road when it's not in their place to do so. But I don't see why that man should acted out on his anger the way he did. I mean, it does nothing to resolve the situation but the act simply reflect badly on himself. Maybe he or anyone reading this might think, this is a way to appease the anger within. But does it really? Based on personal experience, I find the best way to appease yourself is really to talk yourself out of feeling angry. You may flash your middle at those who did you wrong but even so, you may still continue to feel pissed if you do not find the peace within yourself.

i truly hope that the everyone (including myself) can take a rain check on their behaviors and try to take an objective view of the situation. You might be the right one at first, but by choosing to behave badly, you are turning the wrong on yourself without even realising it.

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okay stole this from tash...
1. My ex is: mr brad pitt.. in my dreams
2. Maybe I should: be studying
3. I love: daydreaming
4. I don't understand: men
5. I lose: my temper easily
6. People say I'm: shy and BHB (maybe I have split personality?)
7. Love is: unconditional
8. Somewhere, someone is: being taken away from the people he loves
9. I will always: be a lazy bum
10. Forever is: a lie
11. I never want to: be old and haggard
12. I think the current US President: is my biological father
13. When I wake up in the morning: I curse the damn morning
14. My past was: carefree
15. I get annoyed when: the toilet is wet
16. Parties are for: socializing and boozing!
17. My dog is: going to be a corgi
18. My cat is: Tassha Lee MEOW!
19. Kisses are the best when: they come from the one you love
20. Tomorrow: is another day to battle the exams demon
21. I really want: to go shopping right now
22. I have low tolerance for people who: say one thing and mean another