Heh, actually you aren't officially 21 yet. 4 more hours to go! Anyway, hope you enjoyed whatever you remembered of your birthday party last night heh!

Okay, for those who don't know and wish to know, Zhenjie was a terrible host last night. He got drunk at 8pm, fell over a chair and nearly knock the table over. He end up sleeping all the way till morning. Disappointed, we decided to hold the cut cake ceremony anyway. We brought the cake up to the room at 11pm, lift an unconscious him up and sang birthday songS for him. We took his hand and cut the cake and took pictures with him while he lie there concussed! Check out the pics below..


Hmm ZJ, at least this is something memorable right? (Nevermind that you can't remember a single thing)



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"This? It is called a Pensieve," said Dumbledore, "I sometimes find, and I am sure you know the feeling, that I simply have too many thoughts and memories crammed into my mind."

This line, taken from Harry Potter - Goblet of Fire, just crossed my mind today while I was on the bus when I suddenly recalled more happy things I did in the past with my fellow temasekians. I am only 21, but I suddenly feel like the memories stored in my head is enough to give an 81 year-old man a severe headache. I think I have grown so much over the years, not just physically. I wonder how I would react if I am given the chance to go back in time as an invisible being and view my younger self and how she interacted with people. I think I would cringe, laugh and maybe even cry.

I remember I told Shawn about my near-misses with guys in the past and he was amazed at how complicated my life sounded. "Don't you think your life was very complicating meh?" I told Tash about it and we both agreed that we've been through so much. But she said those are what made us today. We are stronger, wiser and view things through a wider frame now. Without our past, we wouldn't be who we are today. We will never grow.

And that is true. I wouldn't give anything to take back the pain I had endured, the obstacles I had overcome. Otherwise, I'd never learn to be a better person. I would still be childish and selfish and petty. I wouldn't be contented with what I have or of who I am.

I am proud of myself for confronting my past. I sought the truth and got it. Though the answer means nothing to me now for we both lead very seperate lives now, but to me, it is a closure to all the questions that'd been weighing on my mind for 5years. 5 damn years.

Today's lesson: Ask and you shall receive. If something had been weighing on your mind for too long, seek the truth.