I have the impression of myself halfway through a limbo and time has come to a standstill. It seems like there's so many things I am pinning my hopes on, which due to my lack of far-sightedness, these hopes appear dim.

In 4 weeks time, the semester will be over. Yet for once my concern is not on the exams, project, presentations, quizzes and assignments about to be due. I am worried about securing a good internship. Honestly, I have done A LOT just to get a decent one. I practically have "TAKE ME!!!" all over my resume. But with an average GPA like mine, and no relevant work experience (which is a circular reasoning because no IB is willing to take me that's why I have no IB experience in the first place), I find the doors slammed in my face.

Then, as again, due to my lack of farsight, I underestimated the importance of having a CCA record in University. Now I understood its importance, when I have to use it to raise my chances of getting the DUO award, so I can use it to go to Barcelona next semester for exchange, and whether I get my choice school, ESADE, yet again depends on my mediocre GPA.

Lastly, I worry about, but not as much as the above, my employment opportunities after I graduate at the end of this year. This is dependent on my GPA and internship I guess which eventually also relates back to my GPA. And it's too late to pull up my GPA now. I opened my excel sheet and did some simple calculations and realise I need to get a GPA of 4.3 (A+) average to get a Cum Laude. That I tell you, is impossible. Argh, who said an undergraduate's life is the happiest?

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